New

I now have a new digital camera, yep gone are the days of the Kodak sunsaver disposable camera. I have yet to use it, but hey at least I have one right?

I now have new glasses. Yep they fun and sexy..heh heh. Once I get my act together I should post a picture.

I have a new roomate, well sorta. My brother has gone back to Victoria to school so now it is just me and my sister, so far so good.

I have a new appreciation for ridding a bike. I rode my sister's bike home today and it was not a pretty sight...you would have to see the bike to truly appreciate the thought of me riding it.

I start my new vocal Jazz group on wednesday, very excited about it.

For me the fall is always a time to think and ponder and look forward to things that are new. I am excited for what is ahead.

change

It is hard to beleive that the summer has come to an end, where does the time go?

I had an amazing summer. full of so many experiences, many of which I should have written about, many of which will remain in my heart.

A quick update...

I finished my job at the Rec centre. It was such a wonderful learning opportunity. I met alot of great people and learned tons about myself..all in all a postive experiance.

My sibblings are still living with me and we are still alive and have not killed each other...yet! Seriously, I think it is pretty amazing that we have this time to spend together , cause rally who knows when the next time will be...

I start my new job on tuesday...yipee! I have found out that the school I will be working at is super close to my appartement, so if I get my act together, I could walk to work. I am excited about working with this new boy. I am unsure of so many things, teacher, class, ect. But I am confident that I am where I am supposed to be. So I can rest in that and sit back and watch the Lord work!

The fall brings changes and freshness. I am looking forward to starting new things and meeting new people. I am excited about starting the christmas musical at my church. I am also involved in a jazz group, the one that I auditioned for in the spring, that is going to start up in a few weeks.

I am enjoying a little time away right now. I visited some great friends on thursday and I am at some other wonderful friends now. Then later on today I am heading over to Thetis for a visit. My little mini summer holiday!

I look forward to this new start..lots of changes, lots of possibilities.

Why?

It is saturday morning. A time to sleep in and relish in the fact that I have no work or commitments for the day. However, I found myself tossing and looking at the clock before 8am.

I have thoughts rolling in my brain. Many of which cannot be answered, but asking them somewhat helps.

The common theme is why?

I know that God is in control. I know that his plans are perfect, but right now it seems like more of a head knowledge than a heart knowledge.

Why does God allow inocent men to die, while helping others? The medic that was just killed in Afganistan was from Comox.His parents attend my church. There is a huge funeral there today. I am going to be serving at it. It makes me feel so sad. He was supposed to come home the end of the month.

Why does God allow precious children to die? I found out yesterday that a boy with special needs that has been attending the summer camps that I work with passed away. He has a twin brother. Now the brother is alone, it breaks my heart. It didn't really hit me until I told my mom, something about a mom's hug lets the tears flow... I first met Casey when I did my first practicum at his school. I went around with him and his Aide. I learned alot from him. I guess I need to rest assured that he is free now, laughing, walking, talking....

I am wondering about God's timming. In the last few weeks I have met someone. Amazing. He is moving back to school,far away I told myself not to fall too hard. Too late. What is God's perfect plan in this?

Hold my heart Lord, it hurts too much today.
Wipe away my tears.

Sigh...

I went to a wedding today.

It was gorgeous...it was outside, small, casual, yet very intimate. I was honored that I could attend.
My friend Lori got married. I met her at the school I worked at last year and I heard the play by play of her and her beloved Donnie. She goes to church with his aunt and uncle, they gave Lori his email, they have been emailing since the fall. He is from San Diego. They met each other at christmas and totally hit it off. They got engaged in February and now they are hitched. Wow. They are so cute and it just makes me so excited for them...it also makes me excited about what God is going to do in their lives.

I am a huge hopeless romantic myself, and after attending a wedding I cannot help but wonder what God has in store for me in that departement. Now, I do not want this to be a woe is me, session, but a girl can dream can't she? I am confident that the Lord has His best in store for me, married or not, I must continue to trust...and wait....but frankly sometimes waiting sucks.

Oh Gilbert...where are you?

In the meantime, I will keep living LIFE. I will enjoy the gifts that He has given me. I will laugh, I will sing, I will continue to be the woman he has created me to be.

AMEN!

Some thoughts

This weekend was my 10 year grad reunion, wow, how can I really be that old? However, when the math is done it all works out. I graded in 1996, it is now 2006. I was 17, now I am 27.

The reunion was fairly lame, there was not a very good turn out. I was trying to psych myself up for it seeing as many people would be married and have kids, however I am pleased to say that I came away feeling rather happy and pleased with what I have accomplised. One girl was getting drunk so she could have the courage to tell her fiance she is breaking up with him, another was celebrating her divorce being finalised and then there was the free flowing booze, not to mention the repeated use of the F word...hmmm so needless to say it was not really my scene, yes it was good to see a few old friends.

I cannot believe that it is the middle of july already, where does the time go? I am enjoying my time at the rec center, but I find myself wanting to be back in school with the kids. I mean I love my job as an aide and I want to go back, I am not weird am I?

My goal for the week is to finally buy a digital camera....any suggestions? I need it to be as user friendly as possible.

Trying to think of something funny and witty to end with....sorry it is late!

YEAH!!

I have two very exciting things to share.

#1 I passed my Class 4 drivers test. That is such a major relief for me, seriously, the stress was crazy. I took my family out to celebrate and Bethany commented on how great it was to have me back..yep I have been pretty cranky these past few weeks. However, I am now a professional driver..oh la la! I can drive up to 25 people in a mini bus...look out here I come!

#2 I got into the Jazz group that I auditioned for. It will start in Sept. I will be part of a Treble group, 3 parts female only group. Also, I get to be part of the big choir. So yeah I am super excited about that.

It is friday night. I am planning on making another batch of cupcakes for the Block Party at my church tommorow. It is so nice just to be home and veg and relax.

Here's to sleeping in tommorow!

Stressed!

I hate tests!

I think I may have a serious problem with taking tests, however I must conquer this ever present fear, why?
Well I need to get my Class 4 test for the summer. For those who are unsure, a class 4 allows you to drive a van or mini bus up to 25 people. AHHHHH.

So, I have been studying and practicing and yes stressing out. My shoulders have knots in them which I can directly acount to trying to back up the stinkin van into a parking spot! Any pointers and suggestions??!!

I feel pretty good with driving the van but I am a little scared with the whole backing up and the pre trip check, Basically I need to know the ins and outs of this van...and I will admit when it comes to car maintenance, I am a typical girl..I really do not know much, however I am excited about breaking out of this stereotype and mastering the check, again any suggestions would be most helpful.

There, I have vented. I feel better, somewhat less stressed. I shall keep you posted on my adventure to become a professional driver!

Music is in the air!

I have auditioned for 2 music things this past week. The first is a Christian Musical written by a couple in the Comox Valley. I had to sing a solo for them and then read a part of a scrip. I think I did pretty well. The lady called me back and said that I am for sure in the musical, but unsure as to what part I will get, so that is pretty excited. Practices will be throughout the summer with the preformance the end of August.

I also tried out for a Vocal Jazz ensemble. I was part of one for 3 years in high school, so I thought I would give it a whirl. To take a stroll on memory lane, I sang "the shoop shoop song" It was fun to belt it out. the director said she would be calling everyone back within a week, so I should know by the end of this week. the choir does not start until the fall.

To keep with the music theme, I sang Karaoke today. I sang a little I will survive, man I love karaoke. I realy must invest in one of my own.